A couple days ago I broke down and started to cry. I caught a glimpse of my knee in the mirror and was upset. From a side view, I noticed that my knee wasn’t as straight as I thought it was (I am still probably missing about 10-25 degrees until it is completely straight), and it looked pretty swollen from the side. I started to worry that I wasn’t going to make a full recovery and the thought of never being able to run again just terrified me. I know that I am only four weeks out of surgery, but I just feel like I should be a little farther along now in my rehabilitation. All I want to do is go for a nice, long, hilly run outside and have full clearance to do all of the activities that I love. While I do try to remain positive, I broke the other day. Sometimes this just plain sucks and I am over it.
On a positive note though, I had another check-up with my doctor yesterday, which was four weeks exactly since surgery, and everything went well. In fact, it went better than I thought it would. The doctor said that my knee looked great. I secretly believe that is because I still ice it for about more than three hours a day at least and I apply Neosporin twice a day to my incision marks. Plus, I stay out of the sun so that my scars don’t turn a dark purple-red color. The doctor cleared me to start physical therapy, which I hope to start this Friday, but seeing as how this is a worker’s comp case everything is more complicated than it has to be. I still have two companies to go through before I can even schedule and yesterday I could not get the first company on the phone. Frustrating! Also, my doctor downgraded my huge, upper-thigh to ankle knee brace. I now have a compact, hinge neoprene brace. I must say, my new brace makes sleeping so much more comfortable. I did not wake up in the middle of the night last night once because of an awkward or itchy or uncomfortable brace.
I am also making progress at the gym with my own rehabilitation. I went to the gym on Monday morning to ride the bike as usual. This time I noticed that it was so much easier to pedal. I was even able to turn the bike on and start it! This is something that I was not able to do before, so I am super excited because this is progress. Even though I was able to turn the bike on though, it still kept going back and forth between pause and on because I can only pedal about 50-55 rotations per minutes right now, on zero resistance. Now, keep in mind that my purpose for being on the bike is not for a cardio workout, it is just for range of motion, so this is a great step for me. I still pedal backward and forward too. Pedaling backward helps with my range of motion, but allows for less resistance, which is good. Also, I tried something new while I was at the gym and it completely worked. I did a modified arm workout while I slowly pedaled. I went to the gym with Zac (since I still cannot drive) and I had him bring me a set of five pound dumbbells. This is what my on-the-bike arm routine looked like.
- 3 x 15reps front raise
- 3 x 15 reps lateral raise
- 3 x 15 reps shoulder press
- 3 x 15 reps bicep curls
- 3 x 15 reps tricep extension (overhead, each arm individually)
- 3 x 15 reps tricep extension (backward, ach arm individually)
So, hopefully I am in therapy by the end of the week. I know that once I start therapy I will be making great strides in my rehabilitation process.